I started February with a gastroenterologist appointment, and along the way I had an abdominal ultrasound, an endoscopy and a colonoscopy. This month has not been ideal.

As usual, I’m trying to find the things I am grateful for, so here goes nothin’…

Things I’m grateful for this month:

1. Coffee

2. Library audiobooks

3. Candles

4. Grocery Pickup

5. My celiac disease test coming back negative! yay carbs!

6. Christopher giving me my B12 injection at home

7. Having plenty of coffee places near work

8. Croissants

9. Therapy

10. Curbside pick up at restaurants

11. Another year of dad

12. Nice weather so I can drive with the windows down

13. Seeing Manatees at Blue Springs

14. Homemade chocolate fondue for Valentine’s Day

15. A kind ultrasound tech

16. TikTok

17. Work happy hours

18. Dog paw print kit to make little Lucy prints

19. Christopher’s handyman skills

20. Drive through car washes

21. Sedation medicine

22. Another year of Molly

23. Cheddar Bay Biscuits from the grocery store

24. Mom visiting

25. Frozen The Musical

26. Mom’s coffee cake

27. Birthday celebration day with the nieces at Chuck E. Cheese

28. Sick days and allergy meds

February was a hard month for me. I am not a very patient person, so knowing I won’t have final results or next steps from the procedures this month until probably mid-April is draining. I have thought up so many potential results and next steps that I can’t even keep track of all the horrible things my brain has come up with. I am trying to put this in the back of my mind and focus on what I do know and how things are going and feeling now, but as I’m sure you know, it’s damn near impossible. So I’m open to any and all prayers, good wishes, healing vibes, etc. If you’ve got it, I’ll take it, because this shit is scary.

Title graphic photo by Joanna Kosinska on Unsplash