Random Thoughts

I’ve been having a really hard time thinking of things to write, but don’t worry, I’ve had plenty of random thoughts.

The stamps this year are so cute.

This is the list of stamps coming out this year. I already got the 2025 Love stamps, and the Easter Bunny brought me the Betty White stamps. I can’t wait for the SpongeBob stamps to come out.

I am way too cozy in my depression pit.

Everything feels overwhelming. I need to look for a full-time job for myriad reasons, but I like my current job, and I hate that I have to leave at some point. It’s the worst thing about where I work, it will never fucking work out for me here, no matter how hard I try.

I also don’t love renting. I have to tell myself this is temporary every day, so I don’t lose even more of my mind than I already have. We’ve spent more than we should to fix things that haven’t been well maintained, so we can be more comfortable while we live here, but I hate the idea of paying to fix someone else’s shit because they were too cheap to care for their property. Also, it’s only been 3 months. I’m sure we will continue to find annoying shit that’s easier just to fix than be mad about it.

I can’t see myself getting another dog anytime soon.

I still miss Lucy so much, every single fucking day. I love seeing dogs out in the wild or my friend’s dogs, but I can’t imagine having a new dog anytime soon. So many people have said I just need a new dog, and then I’ll be less sad about missing Lucy, but I disagree. I’ve even looked at dogs available for adoption on Petfinder, and my heart just isn’t ready.

Christopher is keeping life running for us.

He’s keeping the dust and mold away with his trusty vacuums, steam cleaner, and mop. He’s washing all of our dishes and doing a decent amount of the laundry. And I am staying alive and cooking. I would be in rough shape without him, so thank god he’s around.

I wish the pool was warmer

The pool water temperature has been consistently in the mid-70s, which is so close to comfortable, but not quite floating temp. I was really hoping to spend a big chunk of spring break in the pool, but it just didn’t quite happen. It's supposed to get up to 90 degrees out this week, so maybe the water will get a little cozier.

My monstera has had a handful of new leaves since we moved back.

After a new leaf popped up on the bigger of my two monstera plants, I split them into separate pots, and now they have both had a couple of new leaves and a new PUP! I am thrilled. Plant update coming soon. I hope.

That’s all for today.